today is THE day

The people who know me well know that I am a perpetually planned out person.  In fact, I think it’s Matt’s least favorite personality trait of mine.  He loves to live spontaneously, going out on random trips on a whim, never being planned more than an hour at a time (I don’t know how he does it as a teacher, but he does).  I, however, would have my day planned down to the last second if that wouldn’t make me totally and completely crazy.  I just like to know what I’m going to be doing + when I’m going to be doing it.

Being the planned out person that I am, you would think that knowing when labor was going to start would be reassuring.  I assure you, it is not.  I am a complete ball of nerves.  I have cried more times than I care to admit.  I have doubted my abilities to give birth + be a mom more than a few times.  I am literally shaking in my boots running shoes knowing that TODAY, I will be in the hospital with my husband, dealing with contractions, and hopefully sooner-than-later pushing out this little girl I have grown so attached to in the last 9 months.  (OK, that last part might happen tomorrow, but you get the point.)

In the next 48 hours, our life will be completely changed.  I will go from feeling kicks in my stomach to holding a baby in my arms.  Someone will now be dependent on us to care for her every second of every day.  This morning was the last morning we will wake up together without a child in the house for the next 18 years.

We “check in” at the hospital this afternoon.  I’ve been waiting for this day the past 9 months.  Admittedly, I am scared to death, but I know that every wince of pain I experience and every doubt I have had will vanish once my baby is in my arms.

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Thank you for your continued thoughts and prayers.  While I can’t promise to keep everyone up-to-date on Facebook + Twitter, I will hopefully have some sort of announcement tomorrow, although it might be much, much later than my usually posts.  We have appreciated all the words of encouragement and can’t wait for you to be able to meet our baby also!

  • Debbie

    We’ll be thinking of you all day and sending you good, healthy, peaceful vibes!! Can’t wait to hear the news. I’m sure Cassie will keep me updated since she checks twitter throughout the day. BREATHE!!!!

  • Doubts are completely normal, but let me assure you how MAGICAL the next 48 hours are going to be for you and how AMAZING you’re going to be. I can’t wait to hear the great news. I know it may sound silly, but enjoy the experience and the roller coaster of emotions that come with it 🙂
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  • Lee

    Good luck!
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  • Yay!!! Good luck, will be praying for you guys 🙂
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  • you will be amazing! you are in my prayers today! can’t wait for the big announcement 🙂

  • Jen

    I am SO excited for you, though I completely respect your fears. I have no doubt that you two will be amazing parents! Praying for you and hoping the delivery goes easy 🙂
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  • I think you are going to do great in delivery! Just hang in there, I know you can do it! Can’t wait to hear how everything goes!!
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  • I’m so excited for you! Can’t wait to see her! Good luck today! XOXO

  • I AM SO EXCITED FOR YOU GUYS!!!!!!!! I was stalking your facebook this weekend looking for any news 😉

    just… YAYAYAYAYAYAYAY! God is so good!
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  • I am SO excited for you! I had a scheduled induction so I know exactly the anxiety you are feeling. It’s such a crazy feeling knowing your life is about to change forever. But trust me – it’s the best change in the whole world. Good luck!!!
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  • Kristen’s Mom

    I’ve always been a planner, and you probably inherited or just picked it up from me, unfortunately for you. Matt will probably have an easier time adjusting to having a baby since he is not so “planned out.” However, you’ll be amazed at how fast you’ll be able to “change on a dime” for that little girl. Maybe pregnancy just prepares you for the unknown and unexpected times ahead. She’s finally coming, and you and Matt are going to be awesome parents! Love you, my sweet baby girl!

  • Good luck to you today! I’m sure it’s scary thing, but you’ll be fine. And when it’s all done, you’ll have a teeny little bundle of awesomeness to look at and hold 🙂

  • I just discovered your blog literally TODAY but I just wanted to say say GOOD LUCK!!!!!!!!!!!!!! <3 What an exciting day!