body after bump #2: 6 months

I decided to try something different this month.  I didn’t take any measurements.  While I did weigh myself (and again after our vacation), I decided that I didn’t want to focus so much on the numbers and more on how I look and feel and how my clothes fit.  Every month, recording those numbers would get me all worked up when I didn’t see the numbers budge.  Should it really matter if I know I’m at my pre-pregnancy weight and I am feeling good about my body (most of the time)?  The answer is an obvious no.  And thankfully, the pictures can do the talking instead.

Body Bump - 1 week

Body Bump - 4 months

Body Bump - 6 months

Oooh, hello summer tan!  I also look A LOT less tired now than I did at 1 week! Ha!

There are definitely some noticeable differences, but I really didn’t need the pictures to tell me that.  Not all my clothes are fitting comfortably all the time, but for the most part, everything fits.  I will admit though, like every other woman in the world, I still struggle with body image and not feeling “good” about my postpartum body.  I think it is human nature to feel that way and sometimes changes take some time to get used to.  I know there is still work to do – strength training has been seriously lacking for the last few months – so I can’t expect to look exactly how I used to pre-baby when there are obvious things missing.

Thankfully, my nutrition has been pretty on point lately.  Yes, I still eat dessert every night and drink a beer (or 2) once or twice a week.  But, I am sticking to the 80/20 rule and giving myself some wiggle room in my diet.  I am eating healthy the majority of the time and I am doing much better on watching my portions.  For awhile this summer, I think I was actually eating too little, especially as my training has ramped up to prepare for the half marathon next weekend and my runs seriously suffered.  I’m still trying to find a good balance between calories in vs. calories out, but I’m getting closer.

My mental health has still been the biggest hurdle to overcome.  There are days where I can’t possibly imagine a better life.  I have a wonderful husband, two beautiful children, a beautiful new home, a job I love, and we are living comfortably, well within our means – and I know that.  How could I possibly feel that my life wasn’t absolutely perfect?  But, other days I feel the exact opposite.  However, the breakdowns are so short lived – 20 minutes and then it’s back to rainbows and unicorns – that I don’t really think too much about them after they are over.  I am getting to the point now at 6 months postpartum that I think seeing someone about it might be a good option, especially since my emotions haven’t changed too much in the past 6 months.  I am still learning my triggers (mostly stress and feeling overwhelmed) to help keep a breakdown from happening, so we will see where it takes me.

 

  • Katie D

    I’m 1 year post partum and feel like things for me emotionally are getting harder. This might be due to hormone shifts from weaning, but its a challenge! My biggest trigger is lack of sleep – but I’m not doing good at managing that right now. I don’t like that you are having a hard time emotionally, but it is nice to see someone be transparent about it!

    • Yes, I know lack of sleep was a big part of it in the early months. Now, I don’t know so much.

  • Sarah

    9 months PP and i get how you are feeling. I have anxiety attacks and extreme lows that i bounce back from quickly. hormones? lack of sleep? I feel like i will be better after we wean, but who knows?

    • I think hormones are a lot of it. Lack of sleep and whether or not I run definitely makes a difference too! Ha! Yes, hopefully better after weaning!

  • Jacqueline

    Around 6 months pp I really started struggling. Adjusting to life with a newborn seemed blissfully easy at first, and for the most part life still felt (as you said!) like rainbows and unicorns. Around that time I went back to work, I started having those scary periods in the day where I felt so overwhelmed, and my brain tripped a fuse, and functioning seemed impossible. Like you, they only lasted a few minutes, but they became more and more frequent. I went to therapy just a couple times to sort it out, let go of some expectations, and worked on some breathing techniques and it helped SO much! Highly recommend 🙂 On a lighter note, you look great! Jealous of your tan! I’m about to begin training for a half and I’m still trying to figure out eating… I’m 15 months pp and BFing and my LO stills has a ravenous appetite, but it’s been hard to ~fuel~ going just by my hunger without consciously thinking about calories and portioning…

    • My second baby has proven much harder – I am having more issues with adjusting to life with a 3yo than I am with the newborn. But, he overwhelms me just as much as he does. I gave myself until I went back to work to see if things got better – and they did. But not that it’s summer, I am having issues again. Thank you so much for your comment – it is nice to hear other people’s stories and opinions!